||[Feb. 3rd, 2012|11:29 pm]
As an aside to being again wowed (wow'ed?) By american beauty.. Had a realization the other day that should have been obvious but never had occured to me regarding timing and maybe just the way life has to be... And despite what timing may have cost me, I wouldn't ever change the beauty in my life for a statistically insignificat (one tailed test, two tailed, no matter how lax you made alpha..) At having some personal connection and understanding. Maybe that's why things work out how they do. Maybe they have to. I'm at peace with it. And that feels good.
Que sera, sera.
I can't control every variable in the universe, and I no longer desire to. This is big shit for me, embarrassingly enough. I guess this is the positive side of being an adult.